When I ask myself who I am, I don’t come up first with "scholar." Long before I get there, I swing by actor, director, cat lover, singer, lapsed dancer (watch out for typos on that one!), recovering Catholic, vegetarian, writer, designer (sound and costume… I don’t claim any expertise over lighting and scenic), stage manager, marketing maven, sister, daughter, aunt, friend… and pretty much all of those are places I would go before I get to scholar. But here I am, a PhD student, trying to reconcile my artistic and my scholarly self. The way I like to write and the way the academy demands I write tend to disagree. So there is great comfort in the questions posed in Theatre Historiography. “Have we sufficiently expanded our ways of knowing to allow for approaches to historiography that are truly Other? Far better to ask whether the history of theater practice offers modes of inquiry that can illuminate our historical knowledge.” (Bial 284) Isn’t it about time that we invite into our discourse voices and sources and experts and ideas that do not fit neatly into the (let’s face it) masculine academic cookie cutters? Isn’t it about time that we allow, nay, encourage, nay, DEMAND that our scholars crawl out from the library stacks to interact directly with that living breathing thing they’re writing about? When we look at plays and performances and sigh and say that the critical tools open to those artists are not also open to scholars, how many doors are we closing? Aren’t historiographers theatre artists too? Or shouldn’t they be? Can the inroads we use to understand and illuminate a script also guide us to understand and illuminate the very history of our art? Why have we spent so much time shunning that connection?
Kassy mentioned that she noted how many questions the scholars in this book seem to be asking, and I suppose that led me to follow suit. I think I find questions comforting. I appreciate the idea that it is acceptable, even in a formal setting, to acknowledge that there are things we don’t know, may never know. I tend to find myself a little paralyzed as I begin to write, feeling the need to know all of the answers before I can begin typing. But as Mary said in a meeting the other day, and as these clearly excellent scholars point out, the answers probably won’t be at your disposal as you begin to write. In fact, they may never present themselves fully or even partially. You may read and read and write and write only to discover nothing. But the void is a gift. Based on his article, Postlewait agrees: “A gap thus exists between the event and our knowledge of it.” (Postlewait 160) It’s our job to play in the gaps, to look for the connections, or to acknowledge the emptiness and leave it as a gift for the next person who stumbles by.
Can we perform our theatre histories the way we perform our theatre? Why not? Who says?
So if we can, as Bial suggests, allow theatre practice to inform theatre historiography, how do we start? McConachie’s thoughts on narrative history might lead us in the right direction. Postlewait’s respect of the researcher’s own experience of the research process lends a degree of performativity that has been lacking. Heather Nathans (whom I greatly admire) did a lot of this in her essay, relating her own journey and questions throughout the course of the search for her “conspicuous” Jewish performer. Westlake even incorporated his own thoughts of what he hoped to be true about historiographers before him, projecting another level of character and performance onto the text. The Magic If would certainly be a useful tool as we explore the hows and whys of the construction of the canon and records. Young inserts moments of pure conjecture to enhance the narrative of his essay, wondering aloud whether his subject had traveled to the South and how those experiences might have informed his work. Imagination plays a bigger role in some of the entries we read than one might assume “rigorous” scholarship might allow, but it’s nice to have permission to take that leap. That is not to say, of course, that these writers are encouraging us to write haphazardly without foundation or proof, but rather to allow for possibilities within the search for history to inform and enliven the retelling of it.